I went to the meeting, and it was OK. There were some visitors, and that broke some tension. I really delayed about whether or not to go, and I felt just awful turning up. I was upfront with people who asked how I was going - and I spose some of them thought it was some kind of threat "I’m not good, I’m considering whether I should leave the collective". Maybe it was a threat, who bloody knows! I can only say I didn’t mean it like that.
So the question remains - do I keep working there, or can I move on?
